Saturday, October 30, 2010

Forget zombie apocalypse, there's going to be an obesity apocalypse! D8

Okay, so, here's something I know a lot of people struggle with, and that's weight. I'm in that struggle myself - everyone who knows me knows I have been trying to lose weight for years, only to find that I've ended up gaining weight due to so many factors. But one thing I'll never understand, and certain doesn't help at all with anything is this massive phobia regarding those of us who are overweight. I already deal with self-flogging, the insults and criticism from one person, and the backhanded compliments from others. Then came the Marie Claire article where some bitch who must have been desperate to have something written for some superficial magazine decided to tell the world fat people are gross.

On one hand, I don't think I should be so surprised...this pretty much sums up the media's feelings toward people who are overweight. This woman only gave those views words and liberated them to the world to read in utter disgust and anger. I mean...have you ever noticed that whenever there's a fat character in any show, movie, whatever they're always portrayed as this dumb person who can only think about food? And they're always the comic relief...They're never shown as a person with a mind, ambitions, or any significance as the thinner characters. You always see the skinny person in sexy clothes, enjoying a glamorous life, having a passionate romance while the fat character...is shoving something into their mouths. Way to go, Hollywood. No, seriously, way to go, give yourselves a pat on the back for taking a piss on the self-esteem of so many people struggling with their weight. Good, now shove your scripts up your ass or I'll shove them up your ass myself. -_-;

Of course, the media is only one portion of the problem, not the problem itself. Realistically, Hollywood's obsession with being thin can't be completely blamed. Then there's the "health experts" inducing all this panic about an "obesity epidemic", as if obesity is the new Black Plague. And let's remember they use "epidemic" so veeeeery loosely...Remember the "swine flu epidemic"? Yeah, unless three in every ten people drop dead, it's nothing to panic about...the same goes for obesity. I look around me a there's still a lot of people who are at a very healthy weight. It's definitely an issue to be concerned about, but it's not an epidemic as if weight gain were a disease.

And then these "experts" tell you to eat healthy as if it's that simple, because they're pretty much overpaid to sit there, look smugly at anyone who talks to them and tell them what to eat; just because they're paid well-enough to afford healthy foods in the first place. Eating healthy is not cheap, let me tell you. Healthy foods either taste like shit, or they're expensive. In this economy, where nothing is certain except for stuff getting more and more expensive, it's a little hard to keep up with bills and other expenses and still have enough for food sometimes. And what's the cheapest thing available? Junk food. If we skip one meal (especially breakfast, being the most important meal of the day), then we can't properly function. And if you didn't know that... *smacks you with the keyboard*. B( And sometimes we can only get what's within reach, financially. So, no Mr. or Ms. Nutritionist, eating healthy is not as easy as you make it sound.

And oooooooh, may the god you worship (or whatever for you athiests/agnostics) have mercy on you if you bring up diets to me. @____@ In all my years of trying to lose weight, I have come to one simple conclusion: diets. Don't. Work. They are SHIT, man...shit. One thing I've noticed about diets, that really makes it backfire is: they make you starve yourself. If you're about to try a diet that instructs you to starve: don't do it. You'll end up doing more harm than good. One diet I tried was the Slimfast diet. I don't know if I was doing it right, but basically I replaced two meals with a shake and then ate dinner. This didn't work at all - in fact, I ended up feeling hungrier and eating more by the end of the day just to compensate for the breakfast and lunch I missed. Slimfast, in my opinion, only oughtta be used to help deal with hunger until your next meal or give you something sweet if you're like me and have a vicious sweet tooth, something to replace junk food with - but never a full meal.

Basically, we eat to live, and we can't live without proper nutrition and can't live by starving ourselves. Our bodies need food...diets deprive you of food. Instead, make a change in eating habits. Keep track of the amount of calories you're eating in a day, and give yourself a daily limit depending on your age, gender, and amount of activity in a day. If you have a pizza, work if off somehow - everything you do burns calories. Don't follow other people's diets, just because it worked for them, doesn't mean it'll work for you. Like I said in my rant about Indigo Children: people are built differently, and you'll have different reactions to your environment - that includes food. If someone tells you to replace your meals with cottage cheese, but you don't like cottage cheese: fuck 'em. They're probably communists. There are only two people you should ever listen to: a doctor, if you're able to see one; they'll tell you if you've been taking in too much sodium and should reduce your intake and so on. And then of course, there's yourself - only you know your entire eating history, what you like, what you don't like, your eating patterns, etc. There are so many ways to change your eating habits without some starvation diet. After you've figured that out, then it's a matter of willpower. c_c;; That's where I always trip and land on my face. ^^;

But like I said, it's not easy. If it were easy to lose weight, hell, I would have lost a lot of weight a long time ago. But it's not just food that contributes to weight gain, there's hormones, stress, amount of daily activity, etc. So even if you got the food thing down, there's these other issues to have to struggle with. So, no, telling a fat person to "stop swallowing hamburgers" really isn't helping. Asshole.

Of course, there's also another element that's far more hurtful than the media and the "epidemic" propaganda carried by so-called "experts" and that's, of course, the people around us; whether it's family, housemates, classmates, co-workers - it's much more hurtful to hear something out of them than some shitty writer from some shitty magazine. I don't see why other people around me should have such a problem with my weight, when I'm the one dealing with it - and I'm sure many of you feel the same way, right? I'm sorry my being fat displeases you, but I'm not here to please you - I don't know why I exist, but it's certainly not to live up to someone else's standards of beauty. By the way, that "sorry" was in sarcasm, I shouldn't have to apologize because you're so fucking shallow. :)

Someone some months ago called me a "fat pig" and a "fat bitch" (and I'm pretty sure she still does behind my back). Know what I said to her? "I'd rather look like a pig, than have a demonic heart like you" (because this person is uber-religious, and I like to hit them where it really hurts. ;3 ). Because, you know something? It is better to be fat than someone who likes to hurt others for no damn reason. I'd rather be fat than anything like this rotten-hearted person who bases their own existence and self-worth on what other people - who aren't even a part of our lives think. Someone else said to me "oh, you look so pretty, you have such a beautiful face...But you'd look so much prettier if you lost weight."

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...Yeah. *facepalm* Now, this person, I can't be too angry with because I know what they meant to say and didn't have any intentions to hurt me, they just don't realize that it hurt. x.x; But comments like these leave me wondering: why or how is beauty measured based on how much a person weighs? I don't get it. Fat does not equal ugliness...I've seen some girls who are overweight, but they're still very beautiful and the same goes for guys. Physical beauty, in my opinion, can only radiate when there's a beautiful personality behind the face; not by on how much or how little you weigh. And if you believe that someone is ugly or worthless just because they're fat or they're not up to your standards, then you should take a look at a mirror because that's where the real ugliness and worthlessness is, and I feel sorry for you because you can't see past your own nose because you're so narrow-minded and so closed-hearted.

Someone once said - I can't remember the exact quote, but: "if you want to have beautiful eyes, you should see the positive things from others. If you want to have beautiful lips, you should say nice things. If you want to be beautiful, you should be compassionate". And those are words I try to keep in mind. So if you're a sad and pathetic little person who thinks that "
two characters with rolls and rolls of fat kissing each other" is gross, then in reality you're the gross, and very "aesthetically displeasing" one. Maybe you should take a look at classical art, and you'll see that people who actually had meat on their bones were very attractive, as opposed to these bone bags the media smacks into our faces every day.

So, to Maura Kelly, I hope you end up gaining weight some day so you know how it feels when someone as small-minded as you says those same awful things you said. Same goes to the rest of you that judge others base on their appearance. You're the truly ugly ones. And so unless you actually plan on helping me lose weight, don't bitch about it and go do something useful for humanity instead of being the waste of resources you are. So, good night and Moron Kelly, go fuck yourself. ^___^




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